It's Friday. This week has gone by so fast for me. It has been a much needed break in between semesters. My Spring semester officially starts Wednesday :( It is very difficult working toward a degree when you are in your 40's, because there are so many more important things going on in life. It has been an interesting week though to say the least. One evening I almost cut the tip of my left ring finger off. I was being silly dancing around with scissors..snip...cha, cha...snip, snip.....ouch! ...and of course I looked around nervously to make sure there were no witnesses and thankfully there weren't, but boy did I feel stupid and then Wednesday Erik received an acceptance letter for Grad school and this wave of something I can't explain came over me...I'm so extremely happy for him and I am anxious to go shopping and help him get things together, but he is my little boy and he has always been here. He is the one who keeps me grounded and I know I will miss him terribly. August will be here before I know it so I had better get my wits about me. As I am praying for others I always slip in a little prayer for strength and I know in my heart of hearts that God will make full what is empty and I am infinitively grateful that God has bestowed upon me the safekeeping of two beautiful children, but it is one of the most difficult things to usher them out the door and wish them well in life. This is all new territory for me...if you have any advice, please do share...After reading some of the beautiful blogs out there, I feel so petty that this should even be a weight on my heart, because there are so many of you going through so much more and my heart aches for each one of you. I guess we are all going through something that we just need to carry to God and let Him handle. All these emotions of living and breathing are exhausting...but tomorrow I will get up with a smile on my face and enthusiasm for the day, because that is what I am called to do.
7 comments:
i can't remember if i had thanked you for your kindness. but thank you... xoxo nita
it isn't petty, joni.....it is your life....the experience you are going through right now
i have experienced five daughters leaving.....and with each one, (and a set of twins...so two at one point) my heart ached.
for me, during that time, i needed to find out who I was NOW.....all my married life i had been raising children,..that was my priority....their needs came first...so now what? and i have enjoyed revisiting myself and finding out about myself all over again.
now my girls and their husbands and grandchildren are here all the time......so, it is no longer an empty nest....but a very full one :)
it is bittersweet.....so, feel what you feel......it's a process.
have a restful night,
kimberly
I just wish it were bittersweet like chocolate...I might like that!
Kim you have me wondering which of your girls are twins...maybe I can figure it out...
Oh no, is your finger OK? That's just the sort of thing I would do, lol.
I can't imagine what it must be like to let a child go off into the big wide world...but I will find out one day. I hope you find peace in it all. You'll be so proud of him I'm sure.
As a new empty nester after 35 years of kids at home..My kids are SPREAD out in ages, I know the feeling, but life opens new doors, new stages, and you will see it's rewarding to be
a woman in this stage!!
I'll pray for you..and
congrats on your son's good news
and please don't dance with scissors!!
lovingly, deena
I tell my children they can not move out, they have to stay home until they get married. How is the finger doing? I sit and play in my head the dance kind of thing you should me super bowl sunday and smile....you have been so blessed with such good and talented children, now they can share with the world what you have taught them, and in the long run you'll be very proud of them, God will continue to bless you and them as well. Love ya lot's, Nettie
Joni, when my son left home to go to college I thought my heart would break. I feared for his life and wondered how he would survive without me telling him what to do. Turns out it was the best thing for him. It gave him wings and he grew beyond what I could give him. Before he left and now having a family of his own, I am so proud of him. You will be too. I'm sure of it.
Hugs, Phyllis
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